The Result

well this is the result and the credit! of my master course i been finish taken... and next year and next semester i think im kinda free... although the master course period was short and fast it's only 2 years and i do think that im gonna have a great time and memories ! the most important is i do learn alot in this amazing resources database school!! this is the prove that im not easy to being defeat! i came from C+ Grade University and now i was study on A+ University which is Top 3 of 391 taiwan University ranking....it's kinda painful and stress .. and you can see the result are almost get fail.. in Master course every subject have to pass over 70 marks  only gets pass which is C grade ... so it ain't easy at all!! and my school name call National Chiao Tung University!! google it!! if you're free...

im not here to show off.. i just want to show you that if you want to get survive you have to hang in there and pass every suffer part in the journey of your current status hang in there dont give up over this all stressing shit... you will be a better life or a day with give you bright and luck...

so my friends when you saw this post ... i wish i can give some courage or enchance the motivation of your own !! go for it and don't look back just go straight and heading to your target or dream just do it as Nike said! or Adidas Nothing's impossible!! so make your own  unforgettable moment!!
just go with it!! don't stop there.. don't care there's how hard to you .. don't think it's very difficult for you just do it and don't judge yourself limit so soon... just go and don't stop~~
and one day you will thanks yourself that you didnt stop down!

go for it my friends~~ wish you good luck~

I wish im a Engineer

i wish i can be a Engineer of Civil Department , and i do think i have the qualify to be one of them *Civil Engineer* i had an Bachelor of Civil engineering

and now i'm still a student study as Master Degree of civil Engineering and i do think i'll be a Engineer soon... i don't know when but i think it's soon.....

this Photo was caught when i was checking a diameter of the reinforce Structure as a Engineer consultant well i know i was a intern but in the site area they all don't think im a intern , i did ask them do you believe that im a intern they are not believe it.. all because i don't act like freeman after all ... and i work under sun sweat like no tomorrow even there are ton of mosquito bite... i still work under the sun and up the soil and dirt my shoe are going to spoil... and next week i mean tomorrow will be last day that i work

wearing a white safety helmet look nothing to you all but to me it's my honor to wear on this helmet i really wish i can learn more about the technical of the skill of civil it's very special and amazing when it builded you can imagine the intelligent of human being they can build anything when there is a places are empty they will build up something that you can't imagine or expected... this is civil dirty , tired  smelly sweat, tan skin, heavy helmet, Sub contractor, the blame and complain from owner which is non-sence complain and unlogic request .... i call those stupid Owner as "idiot" well this is true... 

look at this photo im still very fresh and like a kid that like to play on field on work... but it's only been 1 and half year... things change all because i have to growth ...i'm no more as a degree student anymore im  a master degree student which it call postgraduate to do research on my own career and write on a thesis that i can use it to earn money or find money .... actually this is a big chance to learn in this Master course even that my credit are done in previous semester but now i left 1 year time to get myself knowledge improve , socialize , and brain data input no matter how much , i wish i can save up as much as i can to make my future road bright and wide..... 

Woohooo~~ my memories!! this is freaking awesome i never regret what i did on that time.. young man!! my memories this is it!! and i was luckily i still got these photo to show off!! no matter how explode hairstyle you ain't gonna win this as a guy!! i still can say i dare you to do the same things as me last time!! i'm a crazy kid ever!!! muahaha

Boom ya!!

so don't mess with me or i'll kick your ass!

this is the cake that made by my mom a peach cheese cake when i'm 21st birthday

i wish i can eat this again... i wish i can eat it again!! and it's so delicious!! if you got chance you have to try my mom cheese cake.. some of them don't really like my mom cheese cake and they said they want some heavy cheese taste... well to me that's enough cheese! beside it's baked by my mom of course i have to said it's taste good right? i am my mom son... what else can i said?

The last week of internship

Well two month is almost done my work and i meet lot of new people even know they are asshole or good guy to me it's the same department i was a internship but work as a Engineer consultant...

Being an engineer isn't that easy at all even that i have to qualification to be one of them... but things are not going to change is im still a normal worker if you try to think about an small worker and make you rich it's impossible think big and do big might let you become rich but... only 5% of them are think like this that's why i was saying.. which one you want to be? a formal worker or a worker can think big?

it's Saturday today, i off work and rest at home going gym later on 4:30pm workout until 6:30pm and get ready to dinner. these two month i was being tiring and hardworking even though those are not my working business but im still helps .. all i want is build up a good relationship between these workers well to me im just a internship but i did learn alot in this company call 世合工程技術顧問股份有限公司 although is a small consultant company but i did learn a lot in these two month .. well next week was the last week of working and i need to Work OverTime on sunday which is tomorrow for helping them clear some shit builded by an f**cker  dammit! when he was free he ain't do his own stuff but now the fire was on his ass~ only realise the shit he build need to be clean... well i just do but not complaining i did as much as i can the end up i was the one get learn a lot actually.....the document or the quality checking was the part that i learn the most and likey place...

the bridge beam

building the platform for the each side 

the blocker between the river...

these 2 construction was my case ... well after next week things are gonna finish and I'm done for working in this company and i have my holidays back ... the most happy things is I'm going back Malaysia on sep 9 i miss my family and my girl... but she's not at Malaysia .. too bad...

well i miss her so much but she's at aussie and i don't know when i have the chance to see her also... i want to hug her so badly .... but i know she will said "假假啦" whatever la... 

and let me introducing my new toy Hario Syphon coffee maker... it taste so good.. but i think i seldom drink hot coffee at the summer the weather is killing by the temperature... if got chance i'll make you one if you all visit me at my home... haha

and the rack was calling dutch drips coffee machines which is made ice coffee! the taste was very good and smells good!! if got the chance you have to try one... seriously!!

What a Brainless Postgraduate

Actually this is damn stupid idiot things happen like this, alright things happen like this. i was having a nap and then i got a message from my senior and told me about "Congraz you have been choose to being the National Construction management competition composer " i was like what the hell? and how did they do it? alright they use a Apps to roll the dice like playing true or dare and choose my name on it, 
i was like what the fuck?

 here is the stupid things and this fucker dare to post on Facebook damn fucking stupid and brainless and that "丁一" is a PHD student i actually don't like him at all because his keep bullying junior , and his a fat ass!! why im so unlike him? all because he keep bullying junior of course including me! why i'll get bully? well i just be quite and see what he going to do with me... well i try to build up my force and my defence from this fucker his is such a idiot! an PHD student decide things by apps? this is so naive and brainless if im the one who hold the phone to play this app of course im gonna keep pressing until the person that i want him to be the Composer right? Hello can you use your fucking brain to think about the witness and this things doesn't insist!! how you deicide a things by using a brainless app to make a decision right? this is so unfair , well of course i don't want get into the trouble of being the composer... this is just so stupid!

 

and now i guess they know im not happy with it, so they decide to choose two person to handle this case, this is so brainless action! one is Master student another is PHD student but they both are so brainless!! seriously brainless to the max! i was so mad they put me on the god table! i just don't like it im not saying that i can't handle the case , it's so unfair and brainless decision to find a person be a 替死鬼this is madness! i just don't like their attitude to solving problem... so speechless...

Well today is Sunday of course, i wake up at 9 something and went school by 10am for workout hard!

After workout of course i been tired and go back home to deal with my MacBook Pro 13" to install the AutoCAD 2011 for the working stuff, well i guess im gonna bring my Mac to office for the drawing. just i need some time to deal all about the drawing stuff, it was like a nightmare just because using a education Version to draw the blueprint ...

sigh.... my dear going back Aussie next week so she will be all alone again, i hope she will get more comfortable when she being alone do what she want to do.. and I'm working busy also

Thursday is my birthday but i think i still need to work and i'll keep quite that July 18th is my birthday i won't tell everybody unless someone find out~ well this year was the most silent birthday i think .. all my bestie are in Malaysia and they are busying also , including my family i wish they are healthy all the time no sick no broke HUATT AR!!!

After a short nap ,wake up and go driving range to practice my golf technique well... Unfortunately my hand are pain!!! "water pop again" i just play for 300 shot.... than my hand are hurt i mean really hurt i can't even hold the drive tight... so i decide to play chipping and waste all the balls...

when the time almost reach 7pm i want to go back home but the sky just change so fast 

5min ago i saw a rainbow and now the heavy rain arrival! i was like what the hell? this is super crazy and so un-real !!i got rain cot inside my bike i just wear my rain cot and ride my 100cc scooter to cari makan....

well this is my dinner Nt10 each , add on a eggs Nt10 more so total is Nt30 bucks only the restaurant name was kinda special it call 炸糊 haha funny right? well the taste was ok but not really nice compare to the pricing it worth it, so after is i go home and wash my clothes clean myself. It's raining outside just because the typhoon just gone, now the rain come right after the typhoon sigh... tomorrow i have to work also, but the things is the site i was worry about .. how im gonna face those situation that the rain cause the damage to the Building or construction ... and i can feel that tomorrow i'll be super busy to go here and there well, this job was training my patient and my attitude to face those fucker! well i just keep silent and do what should i do... i hope August will come faster i wanna pass my summer break fast and smooth because i feel like tired that this job are really tired , and i should learn more than that. i'll do everything's that senior ask for! i hope i can contribute a Consultant company as well by using dad company name..... 

I miss you my dear!

my dear , i miss you so much you know d right? well i was hopping that i can learn alot by my job and things will get smooth and cool~i miss you so much and thursday is my Birthday , well i dont wish to have present because you're not here also... but things is you have prepare to buy me a present if you want to.. if you buy me a present than i'll buy you one if i got the chance or money or we can use that money and go out country for vacation haha~ i miss you my dear love you so much, december im going back lo~ sis help me buy the air ticket already Nov 30 i'll go back and DEC 22 i'll go back taiwan lo and chinese new year is on feb i think i can go back as well haha i hope we can have fun on dec , if you're free on dec please come with me to taiwan lo...love you my dear love you~~~

The Second Week of Internship

Well i was start Working on July 1st and it was the first week of my internship as a Consultant Engineer, it's so cool for me to work as a consultant engineer and i was try to learn the real style of construction building, and the progress was so need to learn about it.

Okie here is it, the name of the company is 世合工程技術顧問公司  Shih-Ho consultant company the boss was my senior which is same "Boss" professor of master course, that's why i got the chance to work at here. the locate of the company are not that far from my places it's around 4Km away from here. the first week was very very boring because everyone are busying their own project of the site, and I'm the intern that's why they don't ask me for help, but i keep asking them anythings that i can help you all? or what i can do now? well the first week is get used to it when the site are be confirm that who in-charge of it , well i take the first school and the most nearly from the company

 "寶山國民型中學" it's a secondary school when i been there, the construction are already start and i want to know what's going on about the school was a structure enhance Construction case , the Sub-Contractor dig the foundation , and it find out the column are in different axis it was so terrible construction at last time, and it seems like the laws of the construction are very very easy going, that's why the case happen like this can you saw the column? this is ridicules and the building didn't fall down when earthquake cames! this is scary! danger! if i know the column being like this i won't be inside this building , when the building falls , i think it will be a chaos  for the student !

Well i was kinda interesting about this Job actually i kinda enjoy what i did now, im try to learn what should i do when i'm a Consultant Engineer and what can i do for the job, the most interesting is the construction progress , being those progress it was very complicated and i was try to learn them how they going to solve all the problem when they meet during the progress, the Owner are freaking unlikey even that im a consultant position , i still dont like their talks! Seriously!! i was thinking if im back to malaysia i'll try to work as a General Contractor position or Consultant position! i was still thinking about it. 

actually i don't know that i got some practical theory , on the base of construction and i know where did i learn from, it's Kao Yuan Technology University the Degree course , well all i can said i know the school name are not really good as those famous University but i can said that i did learn a lot from Kao Yuan im really appreciate it! fortunately that i study kao yuan , it doesn't i won't know so much of practical part of construction.... it really helps when im start working!

Hillary is working at the cafe, to learn more about the coffee stuff it might let her explore all the coffee knowledge and she will be 100% Pro as a coffee maker ..... she will be more Pro than me! of course!

well we chat less these day because that im working at morning 8am until 5:30pm it's almost 6pm when i really off the work. she's working from 3pm until midnight that why we dont have the chance to talk much, but sometimes when we know each other are busying we wont disturb each other for sure. but i wish she can know about the real world works, im not blaming her... i just want her to know that the real was isn't that easy that we thought ... we all know about the money are important but it's not every things... like i always said when you spend 100 bucks on something , did you ever think back how you gonna earn that 100 bucks by your own? well this word was tell by my dad he always said this to me when i was a Naive kid i like to spend money to buy things that i feel like i want it, until these day i didn't i just buy what i need here. even clothes i only buy once in a semester.

Last month was June dad visit taiwan and we been those shopping mall i didn't buy many things even that i know dad will buy for me, i just tell him that i don't need it and if i really need it i'll buy myself so don't worry about it....i was surprise that said: i know you want something you'll try to figure it out how to get the money to buy that things, well .... i am! when i want to buy something i want not i need i'll keep thinking how should i get the money from work or where else to buy those things that i want it... i know i'll buy something expensive sometimes but , those things are still available and good condition too which means that i really care the stuff that i bought even a pen! maybe someone will said im bluff or to much self-confidence here, well if you all want to judge me like that.. so be it you will be seen that you're wrong when the times comes...

i was work under the sun, and i got sick in the first week it's because the weather are too hot and i just can't handle it it's about 39 Celsius, don't worry i was not in stress yet it just been two week , i have to survive until all the summer break finish which mean is August 31 was the last day of work i hope the day will come, when i start working i was very tired that's why i sleep at 9:30pm sometimes....next morning i have to wake up at 6:30am to prepare myself to work and leaves my places at 7:45am 15min to reach my office this is the other construction project was a small bridge building project.... this is still a small case of construction but seems like lots of things i should learn from it!

Next week, Thursday is my birthday but.. i think i still have to work and no celebrating ... haha just like old times when im still working in the mechanical company just like old times... no celebration just work hard and rest well 

 i miss my girl so much but, i hope she can learn more than the coffee stuff... i love her and i wish she can be more tough!! it's good for her~      

時間過很快

看見兩年前的部落格，說：“來臺第6年了”明年就畢業了。
也就是在2011年 帖的部落格，如今是2013年了。
這次是真的可以說明年就畢業了，真的明年就可以畢業了。
來臺已“8年” 畢業的同時也是進入第9年的年資，老台灣人叻？
100分之百，我還是大馬人我還是愛大馬我不會放棄大馬。我也不會討厭臺灣只是，是時候換換環境了。也希望有很多新的挑戰，目前在（世合工程技術顧問公司）上班擔任小小的，監造工程師，從明天起還要擔任設計工程師的工作，就是畫圖咯。雖然從簡單開始畫起，也可以從中學習的。我相信暑假結束後我是收益滿滿的。

Hill you're working now, ofcourse it's a long day when you working, you have to stand whole day and i have to work under the sun whole day also , we fight together okie? Love ya~ and good night

Next year im going to graduated! As a Master Degree of Civil Engineering Construction management I'll try my best to find a nice job by my Certificate and fight for the future!
to chase the dreams of us..... Gambateh and good night

I miss you

Hey,

I'm sorry for not being by your side now as you feel sick. I feel bad when you ask me to go to you but I have to reject you. I feel bad because now I'm not an independent as in person so I can fly to you whenever I want. You know me, you know how my mom does, you know how the things work in my family. You have no idea how badly I wanted to be by your side. It's just the bad timing. I gave you my promise, whenever you want to travel I will not say no. I really think a lot, cause I want the best of both world and I don't want to hurt anyone. I hope you understand. If I can go Taiwan on December I would really love to. Seriously. I'm kinda fed up, cause of my mom. I'm stranded, can't go anywhere and you are upset. If only I can make my own decision. I really wish you can walk into my heart my mind and see what's inside. I can't explain it, because if we start the topic we will get into a fight. Fight is the last thing I want it to happen, and I don't want it. Now, I know. Timing is everything. 

Love,

Hill

And if you really can walk into my heart, you will see how much I love you.

A new level of my life

These few days dad coming.. and he meet his friend. well it's not very special at all to me, just him and his friends that's it. and be polite we have to say hello to those senior , well this time is special for me. i meet my dad Best Friends Dato, Ringo well his a very nice person and willing to help everyone who need helps, and Dato, Ringo introduce some friends to my dad and of course im around my dad and i have to say Hello to those Senior "前輩" all of them are very rich person but they are really nice guys, One of his friend Call Daniel , i called him Uncle Daniel and his a Very successful man! i had 11 house at Aussie and 5  3 Star Restaurant At Aussie and it will keep doing on increasing Brunch ever 5 years, and which means he already do in these Food industry for 25 years, his a very nice person.

Actually i should go back when dad and mom leaves from the taipei, well dad saw a lot of new friends and they don't know each other also, well dad ask me to stay and keep doing social and know some "前輩" and i decide to stay and entertain Uncle Daniel because his been Taipei for the very first time that's why i have to entertain them or bring them go where ever they want to go , just like a small tour guide. well im done this job "Tour Guide" for very long time, it doesnt matter to do again.. it's a pleasure to entertain an very Nice uncle, and we talk a lot when we are walking down the street his teach me lots of things of being a good person , the first rules is be good to the one who taught you the most and give you the Opportunity to the way of successful way. Don't be “反骨” also.. if you are still available to treat an person a drink and it's not only the drink it's about the heart of Generous .

1:00pm and we been Taipei 101 for Lunch i meet lots of Successful Senior, i don't know them at all but i heard the uncle that sit beside me and introduce me who are them, i was really surprise that i was sitting with them on the same dining table, and i'm just a young guy still studying Master, and those Senior Uncle are very very Successful people ex:堂記餅家、Ampang 樂園雞飯、錦棆太、Kajang燕窩王、大道東  they all are Distributor Director !! 

that's why im very surprise and i try to talk to them , what i learn today is only a very "謙虛" people way! i was very very Surprise because those people are millionaire , and they don't look down even a people some of them told me their stories and said they was look down by a person when they are fighting for their own Future, and now all of them are Successful people! this is very impressive!!!

My dear Hillary went back home today, and she will be very tired for sure after a 8 hours long flight, and i guess she wont mention that i already blogged, well i miss her so much because these few days my parents was being with me, and we dont have the extra time to talk much on Facetime , i think she is happy, when she land Malaysia and she can meet her mom also

well today was a tiring day for me walk whole day and the baggage are very heavy and my MacBook Pro 15" was in the Hospital , well hope i can get it back soon as possible 

 

Hill enjoy the day in malaysia la, i'll try to learn more and more to increase my lifestyle exp, we can fight for own own future if you dont fear the failure! Add oil k? we can get through it also d..

June 17 The last week of this semester

Well is 18th week of 18 in this Semester, and i been pass one year in this school and it's 50% done in my master course and today is june 17.
June 19 Cost value Final exam
June 20 Risk analysis Final presentation
June 21 Public investment Final Exam

June 22 Taipei dinner
June 23 dad invite
July 1st start working until August 31
and Sep 17 will be the 2nd year of  my master course , which is the last year in Taiwan yes!! i wish i can escape from this country!

June 5 Wednesday measure machine result came out

8% of body fat 34Kg of muscle mass body weight 64Kg

Abs still need more training!the muscle mass are still not enough.

the heart beat was kinda slow , 56 bpm i was quite happy when i saw this, it means i did well in my heart rate training....

haha

Hillary was kinda Qi xiao , she keep doing those crazy and non sense voice~

like suddenly scream or keep calling me and tell me nothing! she always being like that but, i know her very well so i decide just being a short term Deaf people.. or 時運高 than i cant hear anythings lo... how awesome am i? 100% cool and awesome to ignore Hillary!hell yeah!! 

The second Semester

Here is the second semester of my master course , today was the 14th week of 18 in whole semester . this Semester was kinda smoother then last semester because everythings are get used to it and things are being settle one by one... 3 more week and my Second semester will be End shortly. this semester will be finish at JUne 21 and i properly well get an internship for my summer break, and i dont think i have the chance to go back in this summer ... a lot od things happen recently
and family are visiting me in 2 times April 30 and May 18 sis taking photo at here also...i mean "Taiwan"

i miss this 關東煮 so much i'll find a chance to get this next time.

Korean friend instant noodle !

May 20 body was guessing around 12% target was about 9 percent!

i'll keep on going 

dad and mom having lunch before they left taiwan

this is a tea time  Dazzling cafe~ the waffle is good and the coffee are just so so

i'll bring someone here to eat this if  i got the chance haha

well this semester are kinda busy about the report and assignment the most busying period will be next month june i'll be dying soon, i want to start doing my work for the final project but too bad every things  are so tough and things are haven being done by others i cant do my things either, all i can do is just wait and wait... well i get a mid term exam as 17pts damn! the lowest in my master course ever! seriously i been study for few days but the result still shows up bad! sigh i was wondering what the point about the exam? and my research title are even more worst these few month i been meeting with my professor , he dint give me any suggestion or any hint to let me start writing i was wondering what if i can graduated in a semester and done my thesis in a semester will it be possible? im still considering can i do it? and i dont want to waste in 2 years for this master course, i wish i can finish it in 1 and the half year than i can go exchange to another country for learning my english or lifestyle i really wish that i can go British or United State i wish i could and dad are support me...

well wish me luck my firends~

The 2nd Day back to Taiwan of second semester

Wake up at 9:30am and it's saturday and i got two Assignment to be done... before doing the homework i really dont have the appetite to get anything to eat i just drink Protein only.. half like detoxing... seriously i don't have the mood to do anything even workout... i just keep thinking about someone which you know who i'm talking about and i haven bath till now....

this is what she bought for me... good looking but hard to use on

it's 12:00pm already, but im still thinking what should i do now? go Kaohsiung? looking some friend? actually my friend are Graduated only few of them still being the same situation like me "studying Master" im just kinda emo when she's not around me, i miss her very much and these two weeks is my Very "Emo" time cause i'm just came back from Home.. i just can't really accept that time pass very fast , and now im back to this desk and doing my Own job, study hard and doing homework like never ends, i really need to pass this 4 subject in this semester , seriously i can't fail either one of my subject it's take lots of cost and bloody time ! seriously , everyone are talking about working is the most unlikely things ever, but seriously i should enjoy my study right? since lot's of my friend are saying studying is good, but for me... earning money will be more better no matter what problem or mistake you taking or facing end up will be paying by money but study was a good things , and i agree with them.. all of those study will not give you a good future unless you was a hardworking and good attitude, than you will get what you pay before the money or study..

Hill was rejected by the U.S Visa, i was kinda sad when im heard it, because that's the only dream she has , and when she get the result rejected she was very sad and disappointed i wish im with her on the same time, but i can't im just back here already im sorry My dear i can't be with you when you being sad or Emotional. im so sorry i love you so much and you know it, but now im so weak and very sensitive and you know why right? when you going U.S im gonna miss you more , maybe im already get used to you being around me via the cell phone or on Laptop but im still going to miss you more, the time zone was the biggest problem that we have to deal with right? beside the time zone and we will be busying our own things also, next semester i'll be alittle free than now, this semester was the last semester im being busy and hardworking on my study im just afraid the exam only seriously if this semester i get fail in one subject i'll die very hard and i can't get graduated also you know the serious problem right? well i miss you now it's 12:30pm i haven go out yet, im still inside my room.. just dont feel like eating anythings since last night, keep drinking protein only.
i miss you so much Hill hope you will get a better lifestyle at United State like what you wish to.
 

 i got lots things to do actually , done paying the bills and room rent fee, class assignment i haven deal with too.today weather quite good it's sunny day and im going to My lab and do my homework and wanna start preparing my own thesis things, hopefully i can go back on summer break , it was 2 and the half month of school holidays i wish i can go back home also.. but the real things i have to deal is could i go back for a permission by my boss? im afraid that my boss wants me to get an intern in summer break well if really being like this, i think i should pay more attention on my study and searching my thesis source and do it as soon as possible , but the thesis is like never end... keep finding more and more details and information.

tonight i really don't know what can i eat as my dinner and i don't have the appetite at all, seriously i dont like taiwan food, seriously it's not good at all especially Hsinchu the worst places ever, no good meal at all, all sucks and taste worse than kaohsiung. i really like to stay at Tainan, things cheap and food are good to eat weather are warm people are good also, in Hsinchu people in here are sucks and mind straight, they really can't turn a right turn or left turn they only go straight , when you live with this kind of people you will be very easy to vomit blood until you dry like a mummies...
Sigh..

Hillary i know you went out already and you will not notice that i blog now, well you will find out at night i think.. I LOVE you~  

2013 Feb 21

Well it's going back Taiwan again, I really hate this feeling when I'm just End my holidays from my own home , seriously I don't really think this course will be more easy than last time seriously! I fell very tired and painful sometimes when I'm studying.... But there is someone be at there when I need her and she's Hillary she always cheer me up when I'm going back from home heading to Taiwan, three more semester will be finish think back the previews 7 years I been pass through high school degree course and now master course it will be my last course that ill study in my life I think...

This time when I'm going back home it was a big news for me cause sis is getting married , well I'm happy to heard that. And they decide the wedding day on dec 14 i will try Hu best to attend if there is nothing to to be done on that timing . I spend lots of time with mom this time cause Ben is working with dad already and the maid ran away from home... Well the things is from being free and become a man maid do all the house works , including the lights in house they are not free to change the broken light well those are a part of my job also ,new year lantern are decorate by me and install on wall by me too.. The very bad image in my brain now is emo... Are starting Lo...

I miss my girl very much seriously I miss my girl and my family too... Especially that two little puppy at home , they are naughty but they are cheering us all the time , every lived they did it just make us happy and smile... Dee dee the rubbish dog which is he was dirty all the time.. Nga tou the smart and who taking care dee dee....

Hill are going USA on march well it was very fast too... Three more week and she will be oversea too... I wonder is she going be fine when she going there by alone I'm gonna miss her all the time , well I know sometimes I'm driving her crazy very easier but she never drive me crazy maybe her level still not enough high to drive me crazy..

11:55am

I'm on the plane now seat was 7G because of air asia air line in taking hot seat, sis help me purchase meal on plane.

finish the lunch already it's nasi lemak and it taste good too, plane will be lane on TPE airport on 2:40pm which mean still got 2 hour and 40min to arrive destination now my emotions are alittle unstable feeling very emo now don't feel like doing anything also well I got class on night 6:30pm I think I don't have the time to unpack my luggage...I really scare sometimes when I'm alone... Well I'm totally alone now... Even I'm going to school but still my friend are lesser than last time, I just don't understand why? Am I not being social anymore? Or those people are not the same channel as mine? Probably is the style and mature problem they are good in study but not in a good social person, they are very pro in study but I know I'm not.... What I have to do is faster finish this course and get the hell out of there I know NCTU was a good University but I really feel like I don't have the Luge to study that long at there will bring crazy d I think.

12:12pm

Later first things I'm going to do is the 7 colour flower stuff I'm really wish after the stuff done I can sleep well at that room, I'm really afraid! Seriously I don't have the secure feel anymore when I'm came to NCTU Hsinchu , this really gave me lots if stress and painful mind when info back home I feel very free in my brain. I didn't even think once of my research source, well I think in going to start my work tomorrow.. And tonight I got class too... Sien actually I don't have the mood to get on a class seriously I miss hill more than the school or the class just don't feel like going .... I miss mom ,dad , sis and kian... Sometimes I just keep asking myself why I wanna choose this way? Why I wanna choose the way that left home from thousand mile to enhance my future? Maybe I'm not good in study that's why I'll stay away far from home... Seriously I miss my girl so much so much...

Now the plane are full of sleeping mode... A baby beside me keep crying but luckily I still got a headset to mute the baby crying sound.... But in my mind are still confusing, should I really enjoy the way I left home? Well not really... I'm been out country for 8 years since 2005 and now is 2013 next year 2014 sep will be my graduated!! Hopefully i can graduated easy and without mistake.. I wish Hillary will attend my Master graduation ceremony, she miss my degree graduation ceremony I really wish she can attend... I know she study at US already but I just wish she can come if she can, I really miss her and we will be not seeing each other in a year well since we getting together , every half year we will meet but this time I don't know when I can meet her.... The only one way that i still can meet her when I'm back from school , she didn't get her visa than she will be staying at Malaysia Hillary I really wish you can go US study , cause you like US very much... And i wish you can get the visa tomorrow than you can celebrated already.... I love you Hill and I miss you so much so much..

2:22pm 18min more and the plane will be land , and I'm going to start my work already today morning unjust forget to burn Fu before I left home , later when I'm get back I'm gonna burn it first before i did anythings. School? Or stay home? Well I just wonder what is the class going to be set the rules and the team work stuff   I think I miss 3 class already hopefully it won't effect my group mate or I'll do on solo? Hill I miss you 

So much and I think I got lots of things to deal with.. But i really wish that you can with me to deal these things I really don't have the mood to go school but I think it will be alittle bit nonsense to me, 70% will go to the school for sure and the phone som card I haven go exchange yet ... So it might take few hour that you can't contact me ...

2:35pm 

Landing report by the pilot ... Will call you when I'm land 

Dec 15

2012 Dec 15

Well week 13 it's finish 5 more weeks to go... And I'm going back home next month of jan 19 I really wish the time can pass more faster because I really don't really the places that Im staying now... I just wanna relax.. Most of the stress I'm already handle it like oral but some of them just some of them I'm still don't have any idea to handle it well seriously I'm kinda confuse now, just now I was questioning myself what I'm studying now , will it give me a better life after I graduated? Seriously I'm was thinking all over and over again ... The same question , am I going to have a better life after this master course? Well, my Parents was hopping that I can finish it as possible . Or I can say because they are fully support me to study an master course, I'm still remember the day I haven register the master course but those portfolio I'm already done and waiting to submit only , on that time was this year Chinese new year of 2012 feb I asked my mum. Mum ,can I study master course? She answer me to word. The one is I don't know you better asks your dad, who sponsor you study. The second answer , she said how old are your already? After graduated how old are you again? When you wanna come out and work? I have to make it clear!! I'm studying master course it's not that I'm really escape from the fact of working!! I wanna go out and get a job and get start to chase my dream that's my mind always told me and stay behind and got my back to give me the strength to fight the stress and trouble that I'm facing on the same time, seriously I'm not escaping to get a job!! I wanna gain more experience on working , master course was like a surprise!! Who also won't dream about that I'm studying master of civil engineering. It's just like a joke or a dream to me... But the point it's real!! I'm studying now and still got half way to go 1 and the half year more! Hopefully I can graduated to get my master course certificate as soon as possible!

Well I'm on the High Speed Rail , heading to Hsinchu. That why I got few time to blog at here.. Was listening on music and Blogging.

Well this weekend I spend a lot of money  20k on the transportation 5k on the clothes and pants , the rest are food actually I bought lots of food and bring back to Hsinchu the reason that u bought lot of food is because Hsinchu food are not good at all some more are super expensive, taste bad and the cost are way not worth to get a meal at there... Seriously I really don't know why, and I won't buy shirt at there because it's more expensive and it's doesn't have any discount at all, that's why I choose to buy at Gangshan of kaoshiung!! I'm still like to being at Kaohsiung even that it's hot at here, but south of taiwan are sunshine all the time....that's why I like kaoshiung it's like a sunny places..

Hill went to Singapore this morning , came back on Tuesday so these few days I have to get some entertainment for myself but without drink a beer!!, my backbone are in sore mode and kinda pain also! It's because after the treatment. To reset the part of them, everyone have to do it, I didn't sleep well these few week and the problem was founded! It's because my neck position was move a little by its own position that's why makes me cant sleep well.... And it's still pain frm morning until now...I was wondering what's hillary doing now? Playing in casino? Or shopping crazy at SG? Erm... I think she was having fun with her cousin which she love the most cen cen haha... Sh e call him little pumpkin...

It's 9:45pm now.. And I'll be arrived at 10:40pm destination:Hsinchu ... Just now at pasar malam I bought lots of house things...and this afternoon I went starbuck and help mom to buy an shorty tumbler which it's thermos tumbler! Which mum like to use, and she like to bring some healthy tea or juice with her.. When she dr driving  alone or going out...well I miss my family also .... Sis was having sick now.. Wish her can get well soon , sounds like she having high fever start yesterday night, was laying on bed about 10 something at night..just wish her can get well soon...

Well my lab was like a shitty places, tho bunch of childish senior and some stupid alcoholic , keep asking me drink.. Actually I wasn't a person who don't drinks but.. I choose person tht I'm going to drink. With that's my way!! I don't like to drink with those stupid childish people who think his the best are talk like he really tough or smart in everything's , well let me tell you kiddy!! You're not good in everything's okie? U still being in campus just same as me!! Don't talk to me like youre don't care outside how they seen you are think you are good enough!! To me u just a kid that who ever been bang wall before!! So better shut the mouth out and go out and take a real look outside the book and campus!! That's lots of people are better or good than you!, so you better keep your mouth clean and think before you talk!! When you wanna talk look around that should the word be speak at the same time? Sigh a bunch of idiot in school and some bitches are getting bitch!! Gosh that person was my senior!! Seriously do you have to be that kind of bitches?? Talk like you're really are a pretty girls!! Well you're not in my eyes so please don't pretend that you're really a pretty girl okie.. It.s disgusting!  Both of you are just a kid in my eyes , mind are just inside the book and Taiwan nation... Please open your eyes and take a look around the world not only the book infront of you stupid!! Whole campus was ambush by an army of nerd!!, well that's scary!! An army of nerd of scary it's it???like a example.... When you waking alone.. U saw a Ned is walking alone too... When u pass by him... U heard that his talking to himself ... Self questioning and answer by him self... Like very usual  well that's scary to me... Well lets think about why he wanna to talk to himself? Ain't him alone all the time?  No friend at all? Why he want to be like this? I'll not going to find out why, and how! Because wasting time and it's was useless. When you found out that why they wanna talk to the self...

It's 10:05pm Now... I bought two Adidas shirt today and a long pants! It's cost 4.5k NTD well better than I bought a jeans that cost me 3k each... So I just decide to buy shirt and pants at Gangshan... I really miss Kaohsiung ... I really prefer Kaohsiung compare to Hsinchu... Thing are expensive and live uncomfortable at all.... Blog will end soon... I prefer to study on the train .. But I just don't have the mood to study now.... Don't know why.... Just feeling tired enough... Tomorrow im gonna make myself a cold coffee...and I'm going t buy some, milk and ice cube frame to makes some ices....than I can try my cold latte ... 20min more ill be arrive.. So good luck everyone and wish u all the best

P.s. sis take care by yourself wish u can get well soon.. Hill have fun at SG... I don't know how to contact u I think I just drop message on our FB love u always.  John....

When I get back to home... Damn I Lena another saman again!!! 

Screw the Mid-Term

well today was the mid-term exam in the morning of Thursday! well this week is week 11 of 18 of the sem , seriously screw the exam i been study for few days and last night finally i know how to answers those question and guess what, when i get the exam sheet i was like "Clam myself down" and do it slowly well i did all of them but the problem is, some of them are kinda weird after i calculate the answer was kinda different from the first that what Lecture was taught during the class was way different from the Lecture note...i just don't like to exam seriously it's Annoying and Embarrass. i prefer Doing the mid term Project! screw YOU FXCKING EXAM!! i hate exam even thought this Master course only have 24 credit to take and finish it's means i have to take 8 subject in this First year of my master course!

well yesterday night was raining also, seriously the weather are farking crazy! it's just keep raining all the week from last Friday start raining until now! dammit and the Centre forecast was showing that it will be keep raining until next week! i was like WTF? seriously? i just wanna ride a bike safety! the rain was like never stop even that i during the sleep. I just wish the sky can shows up the sun lights... is been a aweek i didnt saw the sun lights already...

it's been few weeks that i didnt go for golfing already... i hope the weather will be okie than i can went out for golf... seriously this raining weather really drives me crazy lo!! can't tahan lo!!

next week i might going to North taiwan for relax or go finds some friends of mine.... i miss north taiwan sunny day always! not here Hsinchu everything are expensive and keep raining and freaking cold just dont like here at all... sigh... 7 weeks to go than i'll be back home for sure! i miss my family and my dear Hill

two little fella are the most things i miss ever hahaha... Dee Dee and Nga Tou

Sunday of Week 10 of 18

Well yesterday was sunday i was study alone at Lab after workout at school GYM room...after a lunch straight away go Lab study and find out i got lots of Chapter have to do revision!! dammit this thursday Mid-Term is coming and i wish i can handle it... so now i was at the new places , the reason that i moved out it's because those bunch of idiot!! keep making noise in the room of Hostel and the smelly smells i just cant handle it!! t's really disgusting , and the air pollution are awful too....

this is the places that i moved in looks like... my room at 5th floor and the stairs of this house are so damn small if i get my luggage vertical i cant cross the stairs!! and it's 5th floor everything are in the ground floor the water and my bike are at 5th floor.... but my room was quite enough and the air are fresh because it's 5th floor and it was the most cold room in this house! well i dont scare about cold i was scare about hot only.... 

Cupboard Assembly again this was the 3rd cupboard that i assembly in taiwan this is the 4th room that i stay in these pass 8 years... i really hope the time can pass more faster than now!! i wanna graduated as soon as possible and i wanna be a guy who really work hard out there!! cause i wanna chase my target my dreams i wanna do what i already plan now or few years before....but let's talk about this week what i facing this week is busy week i got 2 Assignment and 1 Mid-Term Exam i should study all the time and makes things clear when i was studying ..... 

some of my classmate because they wanna get in this Uni they went those tuition centre for let them can make in this school, but i ain't did it! i just get in my by my resume and my previous Research project.. i really don't know why i can get in here and study like a crazy guy!! 

well at least im here , and im already survive for 10 week of 18 week of the whole semester ... 8 weeks more and im going back home for sure! Jan 19 i'm going back home!! i miss my home!! i miss everyone over the sea!! i just wanna faster finish my Education from here!! i really wish that i can make myself clear and graduated from here!! National Chiao tung University was a great school in this Taiwan nation but it was a very tough school if you try to get lazy during the course start! i been thinking should i give up when i face the force of stress... seriously it was a lot of stress compare to my previous days that i been pass through.... sometimes i was telling myself "you are luckily that your degree course are not studying at here"if degree course i was studying at here... i think i'll not study master course for sure! it's like a disaster for sure!! i cant take it for 4 years!

well this is the places i workout!! it's all Fitness First! it's a expensive and professional Machines!! and it's good to use all the time... but the bad things is inside this small room it's always full!! alot of people inside! so i have to choose those time with the room wasn't fill in much people (Peak Hour) i just dont want my workout season been disturb! so i choose those unpeak timing.. like morning 10am or 1pm maybe sunday after lunch time it's was less people there.. so i can train hard by my own way!

and this is the swimming pool of my school it's just outside of the GYM room, so everytime when i shake my protein after workout i just stand the view as this picture spot and watch they swiming... and now it's winter less people will swim during the winter season i think....

i was missing the driving range already.. i wanna play it today (MOnday) but the weather is been crazy keep raining non-stop from yesterday night until now haven stop... i just don't like the weather like this keep raining... and i was the one who ride scooter to school not driving a car to school of course i scare about the wet road and it's cold outside! when i get to school my feet are cold like hell but i still have to think about it!! so i decide to stay at home and study all about the mid term exam chapter!

Study will never stop if you step in this school! i been study non stop when i start in this semester! i hate studies sometime.. it's not like wasting time! it's the education and the theory was too much! it's my brain  memory can't recorgnize all of them!when i wanna study i'll do it by automatic it's way different compare to my previous lifestyle!! it was like two person that i can feel it by myself ! last time i was a person who touch the book when the exam coming.. but now i touch the book when i got nothing to do... when feel like i can't follow up the course than i'll start study all over and over again!! even that i read before i just wanna make myself clear!!

this is a Tough Uni Student lifestyle so

Take it of leave it??