Jan 15 Wed

Well.... this semester was going to be end soon, and i'll be home this friday noon..... which means i left one more semester to end my graduated of my life time...
Next semester will be the last chance of fighting and my goal of this winter break is i have to complete my 2 Chapter of my Thesis and the Chapter 4 i have to get the data from school and others school either that might be the hardest part for me and the Company that i have to visit are way too far from my schedule i just wanna make it smooth and quick...but things just happened on Monday i had a meeting with my professor and we're discussing about my questionnaire for my thesis research answer and data collection it might be a mess for me right now sigh...

well friday is coming and i'll be home , i wish i really can do something that i have to do about my research part it's too important for me and it effect my graduated date and qualify!

this time I'm going back home with huge luggage and heavy stuff! well actually those things have to be back home soon just don't know when then i decide to take it back at this time, cause i still got lot's of things have to send back ... and most of them are clothes some are just empty box some of them are memories to me... but some of them are trash but i still keeping them as a part of spend memories the remind me that i already bought!

Hill going back Aussie soon erm..... i think I'm gonna miss her too she's going back on 10th of Feb which is still chinese new years , yesterday we were chatting somethings that "value mind?"erm... everyone has a different way to think and moves just can't force them to think same as yours.. well i get it but one of things are important call respect , but i don't feel everyone really know it.... even my friend knows but maybe they all are a grow adult meet lots of things and did get in a huge trouble or learn a lesson from big mistake that's why they know the RESPECT and self manage....to try their best to be the one who will be accept from outsider even a small matter but i ain't seen one in those "ungrateful Brat "think back when i was 16 alone at a different country i lives my own and no one care a shit about you because you're no body now! well i been there before and now ... I'm still a no body as well but i can said that i care about everyone... but "Brat?"  Ain't!! why? cause Brat always think they're right and do what they want and doesn't care about others that might be effected in the circle ...... why would i said that? cause i had seems a lot even my junior that not in my lab .....they always think the world are giving them trouble or some human being are trying to mess with them even they "think" they're fine from their confidence , well "Brat" let me tell you if 1 thousand people said you're wrong... they will be two answer at the end 1.you're a gunnies that's why you don't care others   2. you're a fool that didn't mention the environment around you had change and you should be joined! Well "Brat" give you a word here....If you can't defeat them join them and Don't think BIG but think nice! IF you really think that's you're totally right for everything well in my eyes you're not there yet... cause you still a "kid" you still don't have the qualified to talk rights.... why I'm so hate about "Brats" well i don't think "Brats" knows the true Hell life ever!! i been there when i was 16~20 these few years i been living at hell and health are been alert, all because too tired and only slept 3 hour every single day work for my school fees , do i have any choice? well for my answer is a NO if i choose give up i might being a "Brat" right now!
well if you're a Brat pls .... think deep down and wake up to not being a stupid brat the environment has change and being comfortable or not... just mention you to know don't be one of them... cause i really hate "brat" they are too over self confidence!



well see you guys on Friday date me for a chat or a drink..... Ciaoz
 

MONDAY BLUE!!

Well today is monday of course, had a meeting on morning 10:00am and i wake up with a big headache which i didn't sleep well last night and wake up at 3am middle of the night after wake up straight away to school. get into lab and grab my note and head to Professor Office for meeting and was discuss about my questionnaire for my research data base.. but the first 10min Professor was saying my Work was too messy and can't be connected as a data base questionnaire and whole meeting duration was only 25min yea i end my meeting on 10:30am~ 

Conclusion is i have to redo my questionnaire , which means last week i was like an idiot doing a stupid questionnaire and useless some more sigh........then i was prepare to go gym for workout and release all the mistake that i had made , when i reach the entrance of the gym it said "Close" i was like what the Fuck? then i didn't workout today and decide to go the IT centre for take the memory card that i had order on yesterday, when i reach there around 3:30pm and the staff said the memory card haven arrive yet, i was like what the hell? ok fine then i was thinking it still early maybe i can go Aquarium for buy somethings then i don't know where is the places , and check for the internet the Shop close on every monday i was like "WALAO e~~~~" everythings close on monday? then i'm abit hungry wanna get some donuts to eat as a snack , reach there as a empty stall... 

Wah PIANG~~~  should i call it MONDAY BLUE?

well today i was like a trash doing nothing and read nothing no output at all, and i ate a lot as my dinner maybe food will make me feel better sometimes but i just can't eat too much because of body fat issue, and Hill shows me some photo it really makes me happy that she really did diet all the time  i wish she can keep going and good for the health , today Hill was telling me that she might going ShangHai for her own business but to me i will not able to go with her to china and fight together at there, because i got my own family business too and i don't want to leave my family apart which i been leaving them for almost 9 years , i just don't like out country for long stay i just want to be home that's it.. hill I'm sorry~ i promise one things i still love you very much.... but hor... think back la.. you haven graduated le.... how to think so fast about china punya business? unless you give up the education and go there immediately but i don't think you will do that right? you said wanna study master at malaysia i said of course go for it , i hope i still can fetch you to school and fetch you back after my work i wish that we can stay together and we will have a house i wanna decorate by us my own house and room gaming room gym or tiny office can it be land property? haha i always got a places i can wash my car d places... haha 

and Hillary this time come back we can spend almost 18 days including chinese new year and i don't know how many days will be disqualify by your mom la... but the coffee discover will be a BIG FAT YES to me.. just have to manage when where and how, just like that very easy i hope i can take photo also~

http://tantannews.com/?p=10483

here's the link of the list of coffee shop that we want to go try out d...okie? deal? 

Love you  Hillary

John

Week 17 of the semester

Well it's 17 of 18 week of the whole semester time flies~ in my memories last year of this moment i was doing my homework and suffering about the final report and exam of course i Don't have any free time or any short break but this semester was different the tempo of my studies getting smooth and slow that i manage by myself...and two more friday more i'll be home i mean prepare for the Chinese new year but this year was kinda different cause sis is not with us anymore she got her own family too. 

the next Semester might be my last semester of my life seriously, i was studying a lot since i was a kid i never think that i can go this far until a master of civil engineering of course i wish i can graduated on time and doesn't get any delay on the date. i didn't sleep well these few days well i can said a week i can't even sleep tight or sleep enough i was busying all the time and wake up early and rush to lab to correct my questionnaire it was a part of my thesis resource it was very important for me research and i might doing the way of my research if my research are successful i hope i can do it! and one things i was considering is the part of after my graduated i wanna learn more about the energy saving i mean the technical part of course~

 i was taking train to Taichung but i got no seat then i sat at the corridor stairs

well Hill went to work starting this week, and she's tired all the time go out at morning and came back at midnight i hope she will enjoy the barista stuff, well one things it just doesn't make me feel secure , she might going china Shanghai for her future works. well i won't stop her if she really wanna go i just don't feel right if she leaves me like that , we be apart from each other for so many years until we graduated and we still have to take the leaving each other part? well it just doesn't feels right and just feel insecure for me... she's a happy girl she want to go wherever she wants but me? erm... maybe I'm just a mummy little boys? stick to my family as well? maybe that i leave home since  i was 16 and now I'm 26 consider as 2014 well? what can it be? i just wanna go home I'll been leaving malaysia almost 10 years since 2005 june 6th i won't remember the day i came to taiwan!  

well talk about today~ i been 竹山鎮 well it actually was in 南投 i been travel from 新竹 台中 南投-竹山鎮  雲林-斗六 lots of places actually the destination was 竹山鎮

went to my mum friends house they got a garden and i was kinda enjoy the relax and comfortable without the city pollution .... when i reach there i was kinda impress of their works only 4 person of them can make the garden so big and comfortable 

the garden was very good and all by natural, when i walks in they got 3 "Pondok" summer house and we have our lunch box at there.. after lunch box i didn't bring my Mac to there than i decide let my brain put it empty for relax for awhile because of these few weeks the loading was kinda heavy just let it be free and empty then i fall as sleep~

and guess what this is what i see when my head looking my feet... i wish i can bring Hill here and enjoy the moment with me too even that it's free it's because my mum friends is the owner of this garden!!!

awesome right? natural air condition was kinda cold also 

it was a places when i keep my brain empty then i just directly fall asleep also

this is the best part i bought the green tea which is 烏龍 “冬片” which is expensive and very less in a year was costing Rm250 in 600g! well i bought a little for myself the taste was really good ! and of course the equipment of drinking tea are important as well see those piggy was very cute and pretty was a decoration of the Main tea plate was a comfortable feeling when you drinking the tea

i wish i can buy my own tea set i mean a good quality tea set! just like this but i wish i can get myself a real tea table for only drinking the tea...the feeling is good and the quality of drinking tea~well today i feel comfortable and relax and i just sent my first version of my questionnaire to my professor so we will have a meeting on monday morning i think after that day will be busy until the week i went back malaysia for chinese new year~ well happy new year everyone it's 2014 it's a lunar of horse year wish all of you have a nice year and stay healthy stay happy~ 

John

Happy Birthday Hillary

My Beloved Hillary , happy birthday at the first i hope you can enjoy the music via reading this blog..

Hill i wanna say thank you... for being there for me anytime.. i love you

alright here it goes.. do you still remember first time we meet?

yup that's right the first year and the first time my dear.. i still remember what we did on that day...well i want to say thank you again for keeping me on those day which is keeping secret from your mom haha well we have fun at that time and the very first time right? we hang out with two drunker and shopping without brain walk in and out those shop for no reason haha 

And the first time of the bus transport with me which is the very first time that we going to Taipei Zoo 

i think we both enjoy the day even that those kid are funny when we're inside the Green House...

and the very first time of the Famous Waffle in my school you were enjoy it

the first time that we both ate the vegetarian meal together but it's not bad too right?

the first time that we go Costco together and it was bait wild when we after pay those things it's too much... can't even finish it

The first time you said taste good on Starbucks french toast sandwich and you were happy to ate that....

and my first watch Collect Box i love you so much!!

our first time attempt the Italian restaurant which we order too much...

and you said the first flower that i gave you~~ i love you so much my dear..

it's just too many grateful memories during that we being together even you always said me "Cina Ah paei"well i still love you so much you  always drive me crazy on the internet and i always drive you "Ki Xiao"haha fair la... i think.. haha i love you so much my dear...i know your birthday have to pass Dec28 11:59pm only is your birthday i know i might not be the first one to say happy birthday to you but I'm the first blog for you and say happy birthday Hillary stay happy stay pretty and healthy that's 3H for you my dear...there was too many first time memories i was so happy with it... each of it.. even those things that i couldn't accept by myself.. but i think i have to take it also i don't have the choice to leave it.. i'll pick you up Hill and make a big wish if you wanna let me know ... please let me know.. i'll try my best to make it happy by my Capability haha... you know what I'm saying.. well 8 more month i'll be graduated and i might heading my own business which is helping my dad.. but that's not the point on this blog..the point it this is the very first time that i say happy birthday to you my dear.. By blog i love you my dear hope you'll like it la... 

Dec 22

Location:Air Asia D3732
Seat:16G
Time: 12:00pm
Date: 22 Dec 2013

Well three weeks of holidays and wedding celebration is finish and lots of relative and friends was asking when is my turn? Actually I also don't know.. Beside I'm still a student now everything are bit ready yet even my working direction and location I haven decide yet too.
Well I'll said that will be not that soon for me to get married and the first things in my mine is I have to do research and I wish I can go find those company for asking them about corporation in my research or future business . Actually I really don't know what can I do , I really have to push myself to the limits for my own good and bright future and then build my own family and kingdom by myself.

Hillary was oversea , she's been Taiwan for few days trip but I don't know when and where can I see her although , too many limit and rules beside the wall and I'm facing it. Luckily in not those people that will skip things...I miss you Hill I really miss you, but you're not around me too we might see each other on next month i already told dad that in coming back this Chinese New Year for sure. Don't worry about the meet condition we will figure it out d! Okie?
Dec29 is your birthdays but I'm not there I'm so sorry about it, and that day I really like jumping tone haha sorry for that next time I straight away come out from home so don't worry about the wear also, i'll dress is very formal d okie? Promise is a promise I know you already said I break my promise but I tell you la!! Not this time!! Not this time just wearing properly only mah... This one easy job d.... Don't worry! I'll give you very got face out there .... And when I get back to school i'll train very hard and pump up to 70kg of my weight I might look like monster on that time, so you get scare wor~~~ muahaha but I don't know it will success or not because left 3 weeks only unless I train every single day and twice a day like monster then I might will get bigger and bigger ... Agree??

This year our birthday ,was celebrate alone ... And we have to separate and pass our birthday without each other... Sad case lo...I was missing you when you're not around...
And I'm so sorry that this year your birthdays I didn't buy anything for you I'm so sorry for that cause I don't know what can I buy for you, and we both just a student we shouldn't spend too much money on present ... I'll scare when we both buy expensive things to each other become normal when one day I really have no money then I have to buy some cheap things and the "ki mo chi" will be different also I don't want that happen actually!! And I know you get what I mean d... "You know what I'm saaaayyin?"
Haha my emotion are stable because I know when I get back I have to rush my things and push myself on the track and get back to work shortly... And about the company that might need to bring back to Malaysia and work... I'll have to discuss with lots of senior only know what can I do....
Actually in my mind is "just do it" never try never knows.. Sometime I know those things will bring suffer and and painful i'll still go with it just because I wanna try my best and give myself a best shot that see how far can I go .... "You know what I'm saying?"

After air Asia Pak Nasser's nasi lemak then now feeling good, wearing New York Yankees jacket cause the other side was kinda cold and I know how cold is it... Don't worry i'll dress up thick and won't get cold d...my brain was thinking one things on same time ... How I'm gonna meet you tomorrow or maybe tonight? I think you should drop me your living address then i'll google it and search about the direction to meet you hill....
Will 2 more hour only reach Taiwan
Will be 2:20pm arrival Taipei international airport
Don't forget when you leave Taiwan airport go shop!! Buy lots of Lo'citane shampoo....yesterday mum buy for me the butter and oil shower gel and the pillow mist I don't buy hand cream because I got the 100% lotion it's very GAO!! I like it but one bad things is no smell lo.... Haha i'll try to talk to you when I off the plane i'll call you ASAP my dear....
Love you!

Good ByE Oct And hello to Nov

Well it's week 8 on next week , things are going stress and difficult for me! especially the Thesis it's was like very hard, it's not that i didn't write thesis before the thing is i have to do all the research all by my own and the data searching part well i already found lot's of thesis but i don't have the time to digest it! it's too much even the lesser page was around 30 page and please believe me every page that i read i wrote! on word i don't care that it will be helpful or not but all i have to do is just write i hope my thesis will get on the target soon it's because i take a leave for 3 week for going home attend my sis wedding...

and there's one thing that i'm happy that my target reach!! 65Kg reach... last year on this time i was 60kg and now i gain weight till my target weight!! 65Kg babe! you can see that even that I'm wearing a huge T-Shirt i still look big!! haha but if you don't know about workout stuff you might said me fat or buff! actually nope! you saw 6 square things in that Picture? that call abdominal babe!!!if you said I'm fat? i show that ABS than it might keep your mouth shut too! and some of those people don't know about the passion of workout or the gorgeous of muscle will said that I'm skinny or ugly so~~ F*ck off man! you ain't know this shit!hahaha

Next week I'm going Tainan for a short break for let my brain relax and make myself clear on what i really want to write about the thesis and i want my back get better ... the old painful stuff is coming back ... dammit..it's suffer 

well tomorrow is Nov and End of the month I'm going back home!! yea man!! going back home!! yea!!!! food food food!!

開學了第5週了

102學年開始了，也是最後一年的唸書了。
研究所快結束了，論文的壓力也開始了還在看文章的我是否真的能畢業嗎？今天的我心情很沈默很憂鬱。以前只要自己不開心就會找一些讓自己開心的事情來做，但是最近的我都似乎都找不到任何慣用的管道。唯一的辦法就是回到南部讓我心情會大好即使看到很要好的朋友至少聊個幾句都會讓自己心情變好，來到了新竹一年多了還是沒辦法紓解壓力這是怎麼回事？今天在研究室根本就是心情很鬱悶，心情很不爽。也不知道為什麼會這樣.....sigh...
突然感覺自己很多餘，一點小事也會不開心一整天.....

Another start? Or a fixed?

2013 sep 30 

Im on plane again , and way going back to Taiwan 

 Well this time was different all after these two years I lost someone who I concern the most but she don't think that I'm concern her.. Well things just change too suddenly, I just wanna to Complain but end up with break up.. Seriously on that time I'm already think about what I want to do and how to far your mom but ... The things just change too suddenly and I have to force myself to accept I know everyone has their own limit on patient but.... Seriously I haven reach mind... I love you for two years but now end up with break up...when I'm in Malaysia you already know that I'm going to busy around and I just don't know why your mom was so cruel to treat you like this, and you still got no anger about it? Why? Why don't you fight for it just moment ...

But things has passed we have to look forward and keep climbing to the target Or your dreams ...good luck to you and me I know we both are still missing each other.. You remember that I told you give us some time to cold down ntil I get back to Taiwan and everything's can discuss , that's because in here I can't meet you and your mom don't allow you to see me either . That will makes me hate your mom, and I'll complain... Bt now everything's done here... We are officially break up .. And I have to face my own lifestyle without you.. I being used to it that I have you behind me when I'm need you , you always there for me .. It's 11:01am now was on the plane and my emotional are unstable and I feeling C*y because I really lost you and I'm alone now..totally alone I get used to it that I'll go back home and keep chatting with you and now I have no one To chat now, and I lost some friends too maybe it's because I seldom went out with them ..but now I have to get back to my old lifestyle travel and chit chat with my friends ...I know you always post on FB that one sentence 失去了才懂得他的好, well I know that before I left you behind this.. Hill you're good person and good girl just because you're too listening to your mom and you don't have the confidence that you can fight for your own future , and this makes us break up and this is the biggest issue of us, my mum said all about us only if we can choose what we want and do what we have to do no people can stop us, just because you too listening to your mom, yes you're right we always listen to our mom, but not everything even that you know that's a wrong decision why you stil wanna Listen? This is not a complain post , it's just a remind that you know the problem of you and mine and when you meet another guy you know what to you and I wish you good luck keys and hope you can find a good guy that being your boyfriend...

My emotion now was confusing, and I was worry abut that will this emotional will interrupt my studies , and it's a final years and it left 11 month that I think I can graduated from a master degree... Tears was keep rolling when I'm typing this... And I listening the iPod classic that you gift me thank you Hillary this is the best gift ever, I was very tired but I can't sleep here *inside the plane* one kids and baby beside me and keep crying and the kid was very annoying I just can't sleep... Diarrhea sin yesterday morning and now I was very suffering keep gong bath room with non stop since morning will now I went 10 times of toilet already I'm  dehydrate and I miss my family also e specially mom and sis ...  I didn't call my dad because that she's not feeling well also just let him to rest one more years I'll be back Malaysia for sure I dont think that I'm gonna stay at Taiwan for working Malaysia it's suit me more and I don't think Taiwan is the best country for mr, Malaysia is the places I born and the places I meet you ....

Few days ago I been India I was worry abut you, when you said want to break up with me and I was wondering why you make decision so fast? Like you losing your temper and control it's a shock that I feel it... In India actually I didn't really enjoy the whole trip because that I was think about our relationship will it be fix? Well end up is a big No and I have to accept the fact... 

It's 11:20am now

About average 20min I have to go toilet once , my ass are on fire and I didn't use tissue paper anymore cause it's very hurt... I wish to call you when I'm arrived Taiwan and I wish I can talk to you...but everything's changed I can't c*y infront of your face it'd s bug shame to me, when I'm in India I wish I didn't broke up with You but i don't know that you want to break up again? It's because that I'm respect your decision then we only break up.. Seriously I want to say no at first but When I think about your mom I was scare , I don't know what she will do to you next and what will you be in a bad situation? I was thinking deeply these day will we get back together when I get back to taiwan? I know you're home but I can't go find you because we already break up before that we haven break up I don't understand that why your mom want to do this to you?why she want to stop you to seeing me?  Don't understand am I really that bad ? And this is a big question between me! Since I don't belongs you , I might call your mom and ask about what she think and what she want! If she said something really meant I won't give her face I'll tell her that she's wrong totally wrong it's a big wrong for being a mother to teach her own kids... Seriously you're mom use be very happy now..I don't believe what she said actually !! Those message that she send to you all are ver dramatic  I just can't accept it! 

Sigh.. W don't have the U turn anymore the game is been lock up by you and the rules are been setting for no survive chance ... All I can do is stand up and keep moving forward and wish I can finish my education and things will get smooth and good luck 

Its11:35am now I been ate three 寶濟丸 since at the air port I was waiting to go bathroom it's because lots of people Queing at the back my seat was at 7D and the toilet was at 30 roll ...kinda suffer now, gastric are not feeling well and bhead feeling dizzy some more  I think I was kena food poisoning 

12:40pm after a short nap And I went toilet twice again.... Totally 4 times in the plane and 5 times on air port I'm very tired and no strength for anything ... And tomorrow I have to start my work ....meeting and research , my heart is very painful now..it's a huge hole on my heart and I was trying to find sometime to fix it... I was suffering and I really think that I was god enough to being your boyfriend but I dont know that you still saying me that I still not prefect maybe that everyone are not perfect? That's why you said that?

My chest feeling painful I can't  really breath , cause it's hurt and suffer.. Hillary I miss you.. I know that you will said you only cares me when I'm in Taiwan is it? Actually u know me so well since a we being together for 2 years more when I'm roll back the memories of us, my tears starting to drop.. Sis was asking me this morning  am I sad? Or do you think it's unworth to leave u behind? I said I just respect your decision , am I sad? Well infront of their face I won't but inside my heart I was very hurt and sad, when u text me last night I wanna chat with you but it seems like impossible ... You know when I'm at Taiwan I got lots of time then I can talk to you anytime anywhere but when I'm in Malaysia you know im being busy all the time , and you knew it and you understand it each of my Ex non of them can take this bad habit of mine , but you you made it .. 

1:00pm on the plane the kids and baby are crying together , I can't think anything more , it's like a brain freezing I don't have the appetite to eat since last night , cause food poisoning and keep going to toilet and my stomach was kinda uncomfortable because that food poisoning makes me Feels like vomit anytime ... I'm so down now

My dearest person leaves and I leave my family today and back to the position that I was and start working and studying hillary I don't think you will let us to get back together and this post are not asking you for get back together? I just want you to know that I'm still cares about you and im not s cold blood , I Know you always said me cold blood I don't care about you too...well actually I do.

1:10pm the baby keep crying for 10min and whole pone was awake by the baby , so I cr*ed  just now.this morning ah chew uncle came before I went. Out it's 5am in the morning and I don't have the chance to talk to him about us, I wanna ask him that why you are so silly that tells everything's to your mom? I was wondering.... What if your mom complaining didn't let me know, will we be happy? Dad didn't ask about us, Louis came my places these few days well he try to talk to me and being my bro to make me feel ok , but now everyone are back to their own position even you..I don't know that your schoo start at when but all I know is your working at the cafe again.. Seems like you really enjoy the cafe...one more hour and I'll be touch down .. I'll takes 高鐵 to go back and transfer taxi to my places I'm sure when i get back to my places I'm gonna feel more down! And do you believe it? This time when I come back I didn't drink alcohol at all even a beer, I just drinks tea and coffee..I wish my stomach will get well and no more suffer ... And nmy wight drop now only left 59kg all because that food poisoning and I didn't workout at all keep hungry mode on and on ... Well hillary 我不捨得你的離開，但是我也很難再承受你媽的無理的壓力..I'm really confuse what wrong with your mom.. 

1:20pm 

I got the feels that going toilet again ... Seriously it's suffer and painful my ass are bleeeding somemore maybe too much of boom.. 

Hill after you saw this blog call me on FaceTime , we try to talk about that ok? See that are we gong to think another solution to fix this situation even that we are not gonig to get back together ...

亲爱的你

This is encrypted: 最后一次的秘密

The Result

well this is the result and the credit! of my master course i been finish taken... and next year and next semester i think im kinda free... although the master course period was short and fast it's only 2 years and i do think that im gonna have a great time and memories ! the most important is i do learn alot in this amazing resources database school!! this is the prove that im not easy to being defeat! i came from C+ Grade University and now i was study on A+ University which is Top 3 of 391 taiwan University ranking....it's kinda painful and stress .. and you can see the result are almost get fail.. in Master course every subject have to pass over 70 marks  only gets pass which is C grade ... so it ain't easy at all!! and my school name call National Chiao Tung University!! google it!! if you're free...

im not here to show off.. i just want to show you that if you want to get survive you have to hang in there and pass every suffer part in the journey of your current status hang in there dont give up over this all stressing shit... you will be a better life or a day with give you bright and luck...

so my friends when you saw this post ... i wish i can give some courage or enchance the motivation of your own !! go for it and don't look back just go straight and heading to your target or dream just do it as Nike said! or Adidas Nothing's impossible!! so make your own  unforgettable moment!!
just go with it!! don't stop there.. don't care there's how hard to you .. don't think it's very difficult for you just do it and don't judge yourself limit so soon... just go and don't stop~~
and one day you will thanks yourself that you didnt stop down!

go for it my friends~~ wish you good luck~

I wish im a Engineer

i wish i can be a Engineer of Civil Department , and i do think i have the qualify to be one of them *Civil Engineer* i had an Bachelor of Civil engineering

and now i'm still a student study as Master Degree of civil Engineering and i do think i'll be a Engineer soon... i don't know when but i think it's soon.....

this Photo was caught when i was checking a diameter of the reinforce Structure as a Engineer consultant well i know i was a intern but in the site area they all don't think im a intern , i did ask them do you believe that im a intern they are not believe it.. all because i don't act like freeman after all ... and i work under sun sweat like no tomorrow even there are ton of mosquito bite... i still work under the sun and up the soil and dirt my shoe are going to spoil... and next week i mean tomorrow will be last day that i work

wearing a white safety helmet look nothing to you all but to me it's my honor to wear on this helmet i really wish i can learn more about the technical of the skill of civil it's very special and amazing when it builded you can imagine the intelligent of human being they can build anything when there is a places are empty they will build up something that you can't imagine or expected... this is civil dirty , tired  smelly sweat, tan skin, heavy helmet, Sub contractor, the blame and complain from owner which is non-sence complain and unlogic request .... i call those stupid Owner as "idiot" well this is true... 

look at this photo im still very fresh and like a kid that like to play on field on work... but it's only been 1 and half year... things change all because i have to growth ...i'm no more as a degree student anymore im  a master degree student which it call postgraduate to do research on my own career and write on a thesis that i can use it to earn money or find money .... actually this is a big chance to learn in this Master course even that my credit are done in previous semester but now i left 1 year time to get myself knowledge improve , socialize , and brain data input no matter how much , i wish i can save up as much as i can to make my future road bright and wide..... 

Woohooo~~ my memories!! this is freaking awesome i never regret what i did on that time.. young man!! my memories this is it!! and i was luckily i still got these photo to show off!! no matter how explode hairstyle you ain't gonna win this as a guy!! i still can say i dare you to do the same things as me last time!! i'm a crazy kid ever!!! muahaha

Boom ya!!

so don't mess with me or i'll kick your ass!

this is the cake that made by my mom a peach cheese cake when i'm 21st birthday

i wish i can eat this again... i wish i can eat it again!! and it's so delicious!! if you got chance you have to try my mom cheese cake.. some of them don't really like my mom cheese cake and they said they want some heavy cheese taste... well to me that's enough cheese! beside it's baked by my mom of course i have to said it's taste good right? i am my mom son... what else can i said?

The last week of internship

Well two month is almost done my work and i meet lot of new people even know they are asshole or good guy to me it's the same department i was a internship but work as a Engineer consultant...

Being an engineer isn't that easy at all even that i have to qualification to be one of them... but things are not going to change is im still a normal worker if you try to think about an small worker and make you rich it's impossible think big and do big might let you become rich but... only 5% of them are think like this that's why i was saying.. which one you want to be? a formal worker or a worker can think big?

it's Saturday today, i off work and rest at home going gym later on 4:30pm workout until 6:30pm and get ready to dinner. these two month i was being tiring and hardworking even though those are not my working business but im still helps .. all i want is build up a good relationship between these workers well to me im just a internship but i did learn alot in this company call 世合工程技術顧問股份有限公司 although is a small consultant company but i did learn a lot in these two month .. well next week was the last week of working and i need to Work OverTime on sunday which is tomorrow for helping them clear some shit builded by an f**cker  dammit! when he was free he ain't do his own stuff but now the fire was on his ass~ only realise the shit he build need to be clean... well i just do but not complaining i did as much as i can the end up i was the one get learn a lot actually.....the document or the quality checking was the part that i learn the most and likey place...

the bridge beam

building the platform for the each side 

the blocker between the river...

these 2 construction was my case ... well after next week things are gonna finish and I'm done for working in this company and i have my holidays back ... the most happy things is I'm going back Malaysia on sep 9 i miss my family and my girl... but she's not at Malaysia .. too bad...

well i miss her so much but she's at aussie and i don't know when i have the chance to see her also... i want to hug her so badly .... but i know she will said "假假啦" whatever la... 

and let me introducing my new toy Hario Syphon coffee maker... it taste so good.. but i think i seldom drink hot coffee at the summer the weather is killing by the temperature... if got chance i'll make you one if you all visit me at my home... haha

and the rack was calling dutch drips coffee machines which is made ice coffee! the taste was very good and smells good!! if got the chance you have to try one... seriously!!

What a Brainless Postgraduate

Actually this is damn stupid idiot things happen like this, alright things happen like this. i was having a nap and then i got a message from my senior and told me about "Congraz you have been choose to being the National Construction management competition composer " i was like what the hell? and how did they do it? alright they use a Apps to roll the dice like playing true or dare and choose my name on it, 
i was like what the fuck?

 here is the stupid things and this fucker dare to post on Facebook damn fucking stupid and brainless and that "丁一" is a PHD student i actually don't like him at all because his keep bullying junior , and his a fat ass!! why im so unlike him? all because he keep bullying junior of course including me! why i'll get bully? well i just be quite and see what he going to do with me... well i try to build up my force and my defence from this fucker his is such a idiot! an PHD student decide things by apps? this is so naive and brainless if im the one who hold the phone to play this app of course im gonna keep pressing until the person that i want him to be the Composer right? Hello can you use your fucking brain to think about the witness and this things doesn't insist!! how you deicide a things by using a brainless app to make a decision right? this is so unfair , well of course i don't want get into the trouble of being the composer... this is just so stupid!

 

and now i guess they know im not happy with it, so they decide to choose two person to handle this case, this is so brainless action! one is Master student another is PHD student but they both are so brainless!! seriously brainless to the max! i was so mad they put me on the god table! i just don't like it im not saying that i can't handle the case , it's so unfair and brainless decision to find a person be a 替死鬼this is madness! i just don't like their attitude to solving problem... so speechless...

Well today is Sunday of course, i wake up at 9 something and went school by 10am for workout hard!

After workout of course i been tired and go back home to deal with my MacBook Pro 13" to install the AutoCAD 2011 for the working stuff, well i guess im gonna bring my Mac to office for the drawing. just i need some time to deal all about the drawing stuff, it was like a nightmare just because using a education Version to draw the blueprint ...

sigh.... my dear going back Aussie next week so she will be all alone again, i hope she will get more comfortable when she being alone do what she want to do.. and I'm working busy also

Thursday is my birthday but i think i still need to work and i'll keep quite that July 18th is my birthday i won't tell everybody unless someone find out~ well this year was the most silent birthday i think .. all my bestie are in Malaysia and they are busying also , including my family i wish they are healthy all the time no sick no broke HUATT AR!!!

After a short nap ,wake up and go driving range to practice my golf technique well... Unfortunately my hand are pain!!! "water pop again" i just play for 300 shot.... than my hand are hurt i mean really hurt i can't even hold the drive tight... so i decide to play chipping and waste all the balls...

when the time almost reach 7pm i want to go back home but the sky just change so fast 

5min ago i saw a rainbow and now the heavy rain arrival! i was like what the hell? this is super crazy and so un-real !!i got rain cot inside my bike i just wear my rain cot and ride my 100cc scooter to cari makan....

well this is my dinner Nt10 each , add on a eggs Nt10 more so total is Nt30 bucks only the restaurant name was kinda special it call 炸糊 haha funny right? well the taste was ok but not really nice compare to the pricing it worth it, so after is i go home and wash my clothes clean myself. It's raining outside just because the typhoon just gone, now the rain come right after the typhoon sigh... tomorrow i have to work also, but the things is the site i was worry about .. how im gonna face those situation that the rain cause the damage to the Building or construction ... and i can feel that tomorrow i'll be super busy to go here and there well, this job was training my patient and my attitude to face those fucker! well i just keep silent and do what should i do... i hope August will come faster i wanna pass my summer break fast and smooth because i feel like tired that this job are really tired , and i should learn more than that. i'll do everything's that senior ask for! i hope i can contribute a Consultant company as well by using dad company name..... 

I miss you my dear!

my dear , i miss you so much you know d right? well i was hopping that i can learn alot by my job and things will get smooth and cool~i miss you so much and thursday is my Birthday , well i dont wish to have present because you're not here also... but things is you have prepare to buy me a present if you want to.. if you buy me a present than i'll buy you one if i got the chance or money or we can use that money and go out country for vacation haha~ i miss you my dear love you so much, december im going back lo~ sis help me buy the air ticket already Nov 30 i'll go back and DEC 22 i'll go back taiwan lo and chinese new year is on feb i think i can go back as well haha i hope we can have fun on dec , if you're free on dec please come with me to taiwan lo...love you my dear love you~~~

The Second Week of Internship

Well i was start Working on July 1st and it was the first week of my internship as a Consultant Engineer, it's so cool for me to work as a consultant engineer and i was try to learn the real style of construction building, and the progress was so need to learn about it.

Okie here is it, the name of the company is 世合工程技術顧問公司  Shih-Ho consultant company the boss was my senior which is same "Boss" professor of master course, that's why i got the chance to work at here. the locate of the company are not that far from my places it's around 4Km away from here. the first week was very very boring because everyone are busying their own project of the site, and I'm the intern that's why they don't ask me for help, but i keep asking them anythings that i can help you all? or what i can do now? well the first week is get used to it when the site are be confirm that who in-charge of it , well i take the first school and the most nearly from the company

 "寶山國民型中學" it's a secondary school when i been there, the construction are already start and i want to know what's going on about the school was a structure enhance Construction case , the Sub-Contractor dig the foundation , and it find out the column are in different axis it was so terrible construction at last time, and it seems like the laws of the construction are very very easy going, that's why the case happen like this can you saw the column? this is ridicules and the building didn't fall down when earthquake cames! this is scary! danger! if i know the column being like this i won't be inside this building , when the building falls , i think it will be a chaos  for the student !

Well i was kinda interesting about this Job actually i kinda enjoy what i did now, im try to learn what should i do when i'm a Consultant Engineer and what can i do for the job, the most interesting is the construction progress , being those progress it was very complicated and i was try to learn them how they going to solve all the problem when they meet during the progress, the Owner are freaking unlikey even that im a consultant position , i still dont like their talks! Seriously!! i was thinking if im back to malaysia i'll try to work as a General Contractor position or Consultant position! i was still thinking about it. 

actually i don't know that i got some practical theory , on the base of construction and i know where did i learn from, it's Kao Yuan Technology University the Degree course , well all i can said i know the school name are not really good as those famous University but i can said that i did learn a lot from Kao Yuan im really appreciate it! fortunately that i study kao yuan , it doesn't i won't know so much of practical part of construction.... it really helps when im start working!

Hillary is working at the cafe, to learn more about the coffee stuff it might let her explore all the coffee knowledge and she will be 100% Pro as a coffee maker ..... she will be more Pro than me! of course!

well we chat less these day because that im working at morning 8am until 5:30pm it's almost 6pm when i really off the work. she's working from 3pm until midnight that why we dont have the chance to talk much, but sometimes when we know each other are busying we wont disturb each other for sure. but i wish she can know about the real world works, im not blaming her... i just want her to know that the real was isn't that easy that we thought ... we all know about the money are important but it's not every things... like i always said when you spend 100 bucks on something , did you ever think back how you gonna earn that 100 bucks by your own? well this word was tell by my dad he always said this to me when i was a Naive kid i like to spend money to buy things that i feel like i want it, until these day i didn't i just buy what i need here. even clothes i only buy once in a semester.

Last month was June dad visit taiwan and we been those shopping mall i didn't buy many things even that i know dad will buy for me, i just tell him that i don't need it and if i really need it i'll buy myself so don't worry about it....i was surprise that said: i know you want something you'll try to figure it out how to get the money to buy that things, well .... i am! when i want to buy something i want not i need i'll keep thinking how should i get the money from work or where else to buy those things that i want it... i know i'll buy something expensive sometimes but , those things are still available and good condition too which means that i really care the stuff that i bought even a pen! maybe someone will said im bluff or to much self-confidence here, well if you all want to judge me like that.. so be it you will be seen that you're wrong when the times comes...

i was work under the sun, and i got sick in the first week it's because the weather are too hot and i just can't handle it it's about 39 Celsius, don't worry i was not in stress yet it just been two week , i have to survive until all the summer break finish which mean is August 31 was the last day of work i hope the day will come, when i start working i was very tired that's why i sleep at 9:30pm sometimes....next morning i have to wake up at 6:30am to prepare myself to work and leaves my places at 7:45am 15min to reach my office this is the other construction project was a small bridge building project.... this is still a small case of construction but seems like lots of things i should learn from it!

Next week, Thursday is my birthday but.. i think i still have to work and no celebrating ... haha just like old times when im still working in the mechanical company just like old times... no celebration just work hard and rest well 

 i miss my girl so much but, i hope she can learn more than the coffee stuff... i love her and i wish she can be more tough!! it's good for her~      

時間過很快

看見兩年前的部落格，說：“來臺第6年了”明年就畢業了。
也就是在2011年 帖的部落格，如今是2013年了。
這次是真的可以說明年就畢業了，真的明年就可以畢業了。
來臺已“8年” 畢業的同時也是進入第9年的年資，老台灣人叻？
100分之百，我還是大馬人我還是愛大馬我不會放棄大馬。我也不會討厭臺灣只是，是時候換換環境了。也希望有很多新的挑戰，目前在（世合工程技術顧問公司）上班擔任小小的，監造工程師，從明天起還要擔任設計工程師的工作，就是畫圖咯。雖然從簡單開始畫起，也可以從中學習的。我相信暑假結束後我是收益滿滿的。

Hill you're working now, ofcourse it's a long day when you working, you have to stand whole day and i have to work under the sun whole day also , we fight together okie? Love ya~ and good night

Next year im going to graduated! As a Master Degree of Civil Engineering Construction management I'll try my best to find a nice job by my Certificate and fight for the future!
to chase the dreams of us..... Gambateh and good night

I miss you

Hey,

I'm sorry for not being by your side now as you feel sick. I feel bad when you ask me to go to you but I have to reject you. I feel bad because now I'm not an independent as in person so I can fly to you whenever I want. You know me, you know how my mom does, you know how the things work in my family. You have no idea how badly I wanted to be by your side. It's just the bad timing. I gave you my promise, whenever you want to travel I will not say no. I really think a lot, cause I want the best of both world and I don't want to hurt anyone. I hope you understand. If I can go Taiwan on December I would really love to. Seriously. I'm kinda fed up, cause of my mom. I'm stranded, can't go anywhere and you are upset. If only I can make my own decision. I really wish you can walk into my heart my mind and see what's inside. I can't explain it, because if we start the topic we will get into a fight. Fight is the last thing I want it to happen, and I don't want it. Now, I know. Timing is everything. 

Love,

Hill

And if you really can walk into my heart, you will see how much I love you.

A new level of my life

These few days dad coming.. and he meet his friend. well it's not very special at all to me, just him and his friends that's it. and be polite we have to say hello to those senior , well this time is special for me. i meet my dad Best Friends Dato, Ringo well his a very nice person and willing to help everyone who need helps, and Dato, Ringo introduce some friends to my dad and of course im around my dad and i have to say Hello to those Senior "前輩" all of them are very rich person but they are really nice guys, One of his friend Call Daniel , i called him Uncle Daniel and his a Very successful man! i had 11 house at Aussie and 5  3 Star Restaurant At Aussie and it will keep doing on increasing Brunch ever 5 years, and which means he already do in these Food industry for 25 years, his a very nice person.

Actually i should go back when dad and mom leaves from the taipei, well dad saw a lot of new friends and they don't know each other also, well dad ask me to stay and keep doing social and know some "前輩" and i decide to stay and entertain Uncle Daniel because his been Taipei for the very first time that's why i have to entertain them or bring them go where ever they want to go , just like a small tour guide. well im done this job "Tour Guide" for very long time, it doesnt matter to do again.. it's a pleasure to entertain an very Nice uncle, and we talk a lot when we are walking down the street his teach me lots of things of being a good person , the first rules is be good to the one who taught you the most and give you the Opportunity to the way of successful way. Don't be “反骨” also.. if you are still available to treat an person a drink and it's not only the drink it's about the heart of Generous .

1:00pm and we been Taipei 101 for Lunch i meet lots of Successful Senior, i don't know them at all but i heard the uncle that sit beside me and introduce me who are them, i was really surprise that i was sitting with them on the same dining table, and i'm just a young guy still studying Master, and those Senior Uncle are very very Successful people ex:堂記餅家、Ampang 樂園雞飯、錦棆太、Kajang燕窩王、大道東  they all are Distributor Director !! 

that's why im very surprise and i try to talk to them , what i learn today is only a very "謙虛" people way! i was very very Surprise because those people are millionaire , and they don't look down even a people some of them told me their stories and said they was look down by a person when they are fighting for their own Future, and now all of them are Successful people! this is very impressive!!!

My dear Hillary went back home today, and she will be very tired for sure after a 8 hours long flight, and i guess she wont mention that i already blogged, well i miss her so much because these few days my parents was being with me, and we dont have the extra time to talk much on Facetime , i think she is happy, when she land Malaysia and she can meet her mom also

well today was a tiring day for me walk whole day and the baggage are very heavy and my MacBook Pro 15" was in the Hospital , well hope i can get it back soon as possible 

 

Hill enjoy the day in malaysia la, i'll try to learn more and more to increase my lifestyle exp, we can fight for own own future if you dont fear the failure! Add oil k? we can get through it also d..