The 2nd Day back to Taiwan of second semester

Wake up at 9:30am and it's saturday and i got two Assignment to be done... before doing the homework i really dont have the appetite to get anything to eat i just drink Protein only.. half like detoxing... seriously i don't have the mood to do anything even workout... i just keep thinking about someone which you know who i'm talking about and i haven bath till now....

this is what she bought for me... good looking but hard to use on

it's 12:00pm already, but im still thinking what should i do now? go Kaohsiung? looking some friend? actually my friend are Graduated only few of them still being the same situation like me "studying Master" im just kinda emo when she's not around me, i miss her very much and these two weeks is my Very "Emo" time cause i'm just came back from Home.. i just can't really accept that time pass very fast , and now im back to this desk and doing my Own job, study hard and doing homework like never ends, i really need to pass this 4 subject in this semester , seriously i can't fail either one of my subject it's take lots of cost and bloody time ! seriously , everyone are talking about working is the most unlikely things ever, but seriously i should enjoy my study right? since lot's of my friend are saying studying is good, but for me... earning money will be more better no matter what problem or mistake you taking or facing end up will be paying by money but study was a good things , and i agree with them.. all of those study will not give you a good future unless you was a hardworking and good attitude, than you will get what you pay before the money or study..

Hill was rejected by the U.S Visa, i was kinda sad when im heard it, because that's the only dream she has , and when she get the result rejected she was very sad and disappointed i wish im with her on the same time, but i can't im just back here already im sorry My dear i can't be with you when you being sad or Emotional. im so sorry i love you so much and you know it, but now im so weak and very sensitive and you know why right? when you going U.S im gonna miss you more , maybe im already get used to you being around me via the cell phone or on Laptop but im still going to miss you more, the time zone was the biggest problem that we have to deal with right? beside the time zone and we will be busying our own things also, next semester i'll be alittle free than now, this semester was the last semester im being busy and hardworking on my study im just afraid the exam only seriously if this semester i get fail in one subject i'll die very hard and i can't get graduated also you know the serious problem right? well i miss you now it's 12:30pm i haven go out yet, im still inside my room.. just dont feel like eating anythings since last night, keep drinking protein only.
i miss you so much Hill hope you will get a better lifestyle at United State like what you wish to.
 

 i got lots things to do actually , done paying the bills and room rent fee, class assignment i haven deal with too.today weather quite good it's sunny day and im going to My lab and do my homework and wanna start preparing my own thesis things, hopefully i can go back on summer break , it was 2 and the half month of school holidays i wish i can go back home also.. but the real things i have to deal is could i go back for a permission by my boss? im afraid that my boss wants me to get an intern in summer break well if really being like this, i think i should pay more attention on my study and searching my thesis source and do it as soon as possible , but the thesis is like never end... keep finding more and more details and information.

tonight i really don't know what can i eat as my dinner and i don't have the appetite at all, seriously i dont like taiwan food, seriously it's not good at all especially Hsinchu the worst places ever, no good meal at all, all sucks and taste worse than kaohsiung. i really like to stay at Tainan, things cheap and food are good to eat weather are warm people are good also, in Hsinchu people in here are sucks and mind straight, they really can't turn a right turn or left turn they only go straight , when you live with this kind of people you will be very easy to vomit blood until you dry like a mummies...
Sigh..

Hillary i know you went out already and you will not notice that i blog now, well you will find out at night i think.. I LOVE you~  

2013 Feb 21

Well it's going back Taiwan again, I really hate this feeling when I'm just End my holidays from my own home , seriously I don't really think this course will be more easy than last time seriously! I fell very tired and painful sometimes when I'm studying.... But there is someone be at there when I need her and she's Hillary she always cheer me up when I'm going back from home heading to Taiwan, three more semester will be finish think back the previews 7 years I been pass through high school degree course and now master course it will be my last course that ill study in my life I think...

This time when I'm going back home it was a big news for me cause sis is getting married , well I'm happy to heard that. And they decide the wedding day on dec 14 i will try Hu best to attend if there is nothing to to be done on that timing . I spend lots of time with mom this time cause Ben is working with dad already and the maid ran away from home... Well the things is from being free and become a man maid do all the house works , including the lights in house they are not free to change the broken light well those are a part of my job also ,new year lantern are decorate by me and install on wall by me too.. The very bad image in my brain now is emo... Are starting Lo...

I miss my girl very much seriously I miss my girl and my family too... Especially that two little puppy at home , they are naughty but they are cheering us all the time , every lived they did it just make us happy and smile... Dee dee the rubbish dog which is he was dirty all the time.. Nga tou the smart and who taking care dee dee....

Hill are going USA on march well it was very fast too... Three more week and she will be oversea too... I wonder is she going be fine when she going there by alone I'm gonna miss her all the time , well I know sometimes I'm driving her crazy very easier but she never drive me crazy maybe her level still not enough high to drive me crazy..

11:55am

I'm on the plane now seat was 7G because of air asia air line in taking hot seat, sis help me purchase meal on plane.

finish the lunch already it's nasi lemak and it taste good too, plane will be lane on TPE airport on 2:40pm which mean still got 2 hour and 40min to arrive destination now my emotions are alittle unstable feeling very emo now don't feel like doing anything also well I got class on night 6:30pm I think I don't have the time to unpack my luggage...I really scare sometimes when I'm alone... Well I'm totally alone now... Even I'm going to school but still my friend are lesser than last time, I just don't understand why? Am I not being social anymore? Or those people are not the same channel as mine? Probably is the style and mature problem they are good in study but not in a good social person, they are very pro in study but I know I'm not.... What I have to do is faster finish this course and get the hell out of there I know NCTU was a good University but I really feel like I don't have the Luge to study that long at there will bring crazy d I think.

12:12pm

Later first things I'm going to do is the 7 colour flower stuff I'm really wish after the stuff done I can sleep well at that room, I'm really afraid! Seriously I don't have the secure feel anymore when I'm came to NCTU Hsinchu , this really gave me lots if stress and painful mind when info back home I feel very free in my brain. I didn't even think once of my research source, well I think in going to start my work tomorrow.. And tonight I got class too... Sien actually I don't have the mood to get on a class seriously I miss hill more than the school or the class just don't feel like going .... I miss mom ,dad , sis and kian... Sometimes I just keep asking myself why I wanna choose this way? Why I wanna choose the way that left home from thousand mile to enhance my future? Maybe I'm not good in study that's why I'll stay away far from home... Seriously I miss my girl so much so much...

Now the plane are full of sleeping mode... A baby beside me keep crying but luckily I still got a headset to mute the baby crying sound.... But in my mind are still confusing, should I really enjoy the way I left home? Well not really... I'm been out country for 8 years since 2005 and now is 2013 next year 2014 sep will be my graduated!! Hopefully i can graduated easy and without mistake.. I wish Hillary will attend my Master graduation ceremony, she miss my degree graduation ceremony I really wish she can attend... I know she study at US already but I just wish she can come if she can, I really miss her and we will be not seeing each other in a year well since we getting together , every half year we will meet but this time I don't know when I can meet her.... The only one way that i still can meet her when I'm back from school , she didn't get her visa than she will be staying at Malaysia Hillary I really wish you can go US study , cause you like US very much... And i wish you can get the visa tomorrow than you can celebrated already.... I love you Hill and I miss you so much so much..

2:22pm 18min more and the plane will be land , and I'm going to start my work already today morning unjust forget to burn Fu before I left home , later when I'm get back I'm gonna burn it first before i did anythings. School? Or stay home? Well I just wonder what is the class going to be set the rules and the team work stuff   I think I miss 3 class already hopefully it won't effect my group mate or I'll do on solo? Hill I miss you 

So much and I think I got lots of things to deal with.. But i really wish that you can with me to deal these things I really don't have the mood to go school but I think it will be alittle bit nonsense to me, 70% will go to the school for sure and the phone som card I haven go exchange yet ... So it might take few hour that you can't contact me ...

2:35pm 

Landing report by the pilot ... Will call you when I'm land