Well I'm on the plane now... I really miss my girl Hillary!! I'm sad and emo now!!! Seriously!! This two and the half month my life was great and happy without any heart bleeding feels.. But now I have it!! Right now, today was September 16 I just left Malaysia area.... From KK I miss my girl!! Until now my heart beat fast and I really feels like crying.... I need someone to talk seriously ..... I'm emo, stomach not feeling well ,sad, and missing Hillary like crazy!! The most is im hungry but I don't have the appetite to get something's to eat... When I think about Taiwan ... Haih ... Sigh.. One Big word from my heart that's SAD!!!
4:25pm the meal serve .... I don't have the appetite but I'm hungry... Silly itiz? Ya I think so.. When the meal serve on my desk... I feeling crying again cause when I'm thinking of my family and my girl my tears start to fall out quick with uncontrollable seriously I miss them alot!!!
4:35pm u didn't finish my meal at all... I just ate few spoon than I just out it away.... Than continues my blog... Here it came again I wanna cry again when I thinking about Hillary always beside no matter how when or where she always beside me!!! I kiss the feeling that she grab my hand tight and hug me surprise when I was after sport sweat all over the body!! But Seriously she is the only one person never care about the sweat body and the smelly smell seriously!!! That's why I start missing my girl now!!!
This morning my family sent me to the airport .... Sis now!!!
I mean now ,I think about sis face and she treat me the most expensive breakfast I ever had!!! Rm66 and when I wanna say good bye she said: good luck ar and be careful all the time when I'm out o their view!!!
Yesterday sis keep staying at home and stay with me and I know she wanna do that cause I came back once a year ... Now my tears fell and there's passenger around me but I just can't control about my tears I was try to be good to sis when I'm home but I just hate myself sometime cause i was always yell at her and being a bad attitude guy!! I hate myself..
4:46pm my meal was clean out of my desk and now I just refill a orange juice for letting me feel better.... The miss plane saw my tears just now i think cause my tears drop big!! Just way from the eyes... And I was sniffing now... Nose are red eyes are wet!! Why I'm so a sensitive guys? I'm too over depends?? I just got back and meet my family feel month than now I feel like I a little kid now... This doesn't feels right at all....
This two month I did lot of things.... Including learning how to be a better man....doing a house worker as standby call.... And I drove a lot... To improve my driving skill... Even I'm still a P license but I still got lit of rules to learn.... Here I wanna thanks to my baby... She's good!! Teach me a lot of things without mad, I was always depends her
Everytime we hang out I alwAys ask her did you get my phone? Or itiz my phone inside your bag?? And she 200% said YES!!! Makes me no worried always forget to bring something's or do something Important "I Love You Hillary" I love you so much that you keep spending time with me... And you never said tired when you're tired, you're like super woman on the track!! You are a responsibility girl!! That's why I love you, sometimes you just make me worried about you when you're studying your exam note..... On that time I was keep talking with you or I just disturb you all the time... I'm sorry baby....
I miss you badly Hillary!!! Did you know that!! My heart is bleeding when you turn around after you said goodbye to me.... I wanna cry on the time my emotion just like been murder by random person without any reason!! I was feeling painful!! If your here im gonna grab you and cry like hell seriously!! See?? My tears falling again!!! And I can't stop it... Dammit, yesterday night you was calming down when the air ticket stuff makes me feel nervous, baby thanks you so much you always did that... Now I feels like I'm a coward.... Can't even stop the tears like usual , maybe this time was the first time I drop my tears in the flight.... I'm such a idiot, am I? Baby?
5:03pm the flight was uncomfortable at all cause a lot of Taiwanese in here.. and they sound are huge and noisy, and I can't sleep just now! Am I tired? I think yes gua yesterday I slept at 2am and wake up at 5 am baby help me to set the alarm to wake me up.
Seriously now I'm emo.... I can't sleep even I'm tired! And tonight was a painful night I think we both can't sleep well! We both missing each other... I gonna cry like crazy when I'm get bed seriously!
Hillary I love you so much because of you I learn I lot of human rules and behaviour !! I know your m om keep giving you a lot of presure and it just make you stress all the time... But do you remember?
Everytime you almost get blow up I always calm you Dow with hug or some kiss.... And talk softly... I'm so sorry baby I can't do it just now when your mom nagging you when I was during the flight.... I feel so bad tht I can't calm you down and keep making you emotional I'm so sorry baby....
My plane land on 6pm something but now it's 5:10pm what can I do now? Gummy bear?? I missing my girl again!!talk about gummy bear... She always out her hand in her handbag and. Grab a small pack of gummy bear and ask me what's this??? And she smile charming !!! I lve her smile all the time it was like never ever enough when she smile at me....
Well now is 5:20pm means one more hour to go I about to landing.... Now I wanna do is change my phone sim card and than take out a gummy bear to let my emotion feel better and the same is I keep imagine Hill was beside me.... Hillary I love you the most!! I Love you!!!
